HELLO RAMADHAN!!!


 It has been awhile since my last post..Actually i was thinking to delete this blog but i guess i wont do it. this blog has captured very memorable moments when I was in Australia. So, yeap i will try update this blog whenever i free.

 Well today is the 8th day of Ramadhan. Alhamdullillah I am still breathing and healthy to do ibadah and fast. Ramadhan is the month of repentence and the month which the 1st ayat of Quran was revealed to our prophet Nabi Muhamad S.A.W. I hope this year I would be able to finish the whole Quran by the end of Ramadhan and pray tahajud everynight especially on the last 10 days of ramadhan inshaAllah. Lets appreciate that Allah has given us a chance to perform ibadah once again on Ramadhan. and lets do our best inshaAllah.. :)

judging

some people really like to judge other people without even knowing the truth..
well, that's life..
but, whatever it is, i am gonna stay strong!!!

aja2 fighting^^

almost a year now~~

bulan ni dah bulan mac..bulan depan dah april. so, da nak masuk setahun aku keje..cepat betol masa berlalu..rasa baru semalam aku keje..huhu..

bos sngtla ade high expectation kt aku..dan tahun ni dia expect aku buat something yang aku rasa sangatla berat..dia mcm tetibe bagitau aku dalam meeting depan semuaorang without giving me any earlier notice. and she said it's going to determined my KPI this year. of course i was so shocked because it's something i have never done it before..since my work is packed with the work assignment already, i dont know when i can find the time to do this extra task..

i'm lack of knowledge and experience..you might be thinking that i already have the necessary skills and knowledge since i have worked for almost a year already. but the truth is i don't know a lot of stuff and sometimes i feel really dumb and stupid. i am super slow in learning new stuff..

and the new task is actually a group assignment..i as the team leader have to lead my staff to do it..the truth is i am very bad in leading my staff to do something..now almost a year but don't know why i felt that it is quite hard to lead people who are older than me..my staff have their own working attitude and i found it is really hard to control them. i bet they felt complacent working in government sector.i always wonder why i have been assigned to this team at the first place..

my boss actually knows bout their attitude..and i almost cried that day when my boss told me she know what i'm going through and how she believe i can manage them and handle the assignment that she asked me to do in the meeting..thing is me myself don't think i can do it at first and i'm really afraid i will let my boss down..but, i'll take this assignment as my challenge..insyaAllah,i'll try my best to do it..i believe Allah wont burden me with something i cant handle..

as for now, i want to focus on finishing my current work assignments first before starting the new assigned task..let's hope everything runs smoothly in the future....amin..

Cameron highlands~~

i had this conference last Monday till Wednesday at cameron highlands..i kinda feeling annoyed at first because the person in-charged gave last minute notice on the dress code/what to wear during the conference. thanks God watis sent me the current email regarding the dress code and i straight away forwarded the email to my colleague. if not i'm sure my colleague and I will feel very very embarrass because of not wearing according to the dress code.

owh and thanks to egy for accompanying watis and me shopping last saturday. if not because of egy, i wont get a 60 ringgit black coat...ur eyes are sure damn sharp lah..:P...haha

my collegue and I went there on Monday around 8.30 in the morning by car and arrived at cameron highland around 12.30. but unfortunately, we cannot yet registered for our room. so, we headed to rose valley first. then around 2p.m we went to our hotel again and the person incharged said the room was not yet available. stress gilaa kot..then we decided to have our lunch first and mind you it was really hard to find a halal restaurant there...plus, it was raining heavily that day.thank god finally we found this Kelantanese restaurant up there. the food was so so but then afterthat kitorang cam cirit birit kot after eating those food. what a day la..

the speech, the taklimat and all those presentation were okay la kot..and did i tell u my cawangan had to perform a sketsa during the conference dinner..we won 2nd best performance during the dinner..yay....haha..and i'm proud being a part of it..

owh and the best part of the conference is actually about the company. well u see, i am not that close with my collegue before because of i have two offices so i rarely see them. but i must say this conference made us closer..the time spent, the laughter, the stupid jokes..i really enjoyed it..haha..

tomorrow i am going to PD for weekend retreat..so that's it for now. bye bye

here we go~~

hi my dear blog,it has been a while.actually i want to share a lot of stories but i'll keep it short since i have to finish my freaking-unnecessary-public speaking speech by tomorrow.

to those who dont know, i am currently attending an induction course at Negeri Sembilan. and the public speaking is one of the compulsory assessments for the course. guess what my topic is? it is "aromatherapy and medical". when i got the topic, i cant stop cursing. wth, i really dont know bout aromatheraphy stuff =.=". grhh...plus, i found the topic is pretty hard compared to my other coursemates' topics. well, but when i think about it again, i know Allah knows best. so, what i want to do now is do my best and finish the course ASAP.hahaha..

and regarding my jabatan exam, i pass all three alhamdulillah. i was quite surprised when my name was announced during the Audit Conference Dinner which was held at the Academy. the thing is actually I dont want to go to to the Dinner at first and I already told the officer incharge of the dinner. and suddenly on the day, my boss kind of force me to go. and of course I was mad because she just said Tan Sri want to meet me and and she didnt not know why. and as a result, i have to ask my brother to pick me up at the Academy. things got worse when my brother had arrived and my boss and the exam officer wont let me go back until the dinner finished and when I ask why they said just wait and see. I am really angry at that time but when my name was announced, I was shocked and I saw my boss was smiling at me..i knew it my boss know about it beforehand..she and the the exam officer sure knows how to lie..and i should have know it too if I remember that the exam officer is the exam officer.lol..hahaha.Anyway, I thanks Allah for this achievement. now i dont have to worry about it anymore.hehe

and this year raya was so much fun. i took 2 weeks off just for raya. raya in Malaysia surely different from Raya in Aussie.for the first time after 7 years, a complete set of my family members gathered together this raya.and did I ever tell that I have a new niece which was born about a month before raya? her name is Nur Sufiah Aqila. she looks exactly like my brother in law but i reckon she has a nose like my youngest brother.hahaha..During raya I also had chance to meet my high school friends which some i haven't meet for 8 years. when we all met, it was awesome and hillarious at the same time..hahaha...i guess we didnt change at all :P..and I also met my Intec friends. small reunion but meant a lot. they were lovely :)

i guess I have to stop now. wish me luck for my public speaking..i promise i will update more soon :). till then!!

exam jabatan

just finished my papers for my jabatan today. what can i say. law and auditing papers were pretty hard but glad that accounting paper was super ok. i really hope i can pass all three papers. i dont want to repeat any paper coz it's kinda sucks if i have to read everything like all over again in a limited amount of time. mind you i even took cuti rehat ok last monday just to study for the exam (since i am not able to study in the ofis due to job workloads).so, i hope i can pass.amin..

and yes, tomorrow i cuti also. not sure whether tomorrow's cuti has been approved my boss or not. but whatever, i just need a time off from ofis. coz i am sure next week gonna be quite busy since i didn't come to ofis for a week this week. heheh

p/s: to dina, i pray for u so that u can get the job.
and to egy, new work new environment babe. so, all the best tomorrow.

xoxo :)

org tua~~

penah x rasa macam org tua? tula apa yang aku rasa sekarang..rasa mcm xbermaya..senang penat..pastu sket2 rs emo..maybe sbb bnyak sngt keje kt ofis yg kena siapkan cepat kot + da lama x exercise..i need to do some exercises...dapat gaji nnti aku aim nk beli running shoes since semua running shoes aku da buang masa aku nk blik dri aussie aritu..rs nyesal lak xbwk balik 1 pon haritu..terpaksa beli semula..da la kt sini mhl..adehhh..atleast dgn adanya running shoes boleh la aku joging ms weekend..sehat la sket kan..hehe

Owh ya sempena 16 Mei yg telah lepas, aku nk wish Selamat Hari Guru kepada semua guru especially guru tadika kemas aku, guru kt SKTM I, cikgu kt SMKANI, lecterur kt INTEC and also dkt ANU..tanpa didikan guru2, cikgu2 dan lecterur2 yang aku sebut diatas, aku xkan menjadi seperti hari ini. terima kasih di atas jasa anda..=)..

P/s: rindula kt budak2 Sunday School..ape kabar la diorg skrg~~

maybe next time korea~~

it has been a while since my last post isn't? sorry for not updating this poor blog. am very busy lately..

well, today is the day which egy, dina and I are supposed to go to Korea. but, we cancelled our plan due to commitment of our works and jobs. feel really sad at first because we have planned to go together to Korea since last year and we even bought the flight ticket. we plan but Allah decides kan. i believe there is always a reason why this kind of things happened. so, what can we do is just redha lah kan..urm and maybe plan another trip soon? hehe..

okay just for quick updates. i just finish my kursus for exams yesterday. my exam will be held on July. so, during the courses the speakers teach us the strategy to answer the exam questions. the kursus was okay la..have chance to meet some new awesome friends..but some speaker for the kursus were quite boring..hehe..

am quite glad kursus has ended. but, when i think that i have to go to office next monday with tons of work waiting for me, i feel demotivated. mind you 2 weeks of kursus means 2 weeks of work assignments. and plus straight away after finish the kursus, i has been reminded by my officemate that next monday i have to go to HQ to do the final report that will be presented to erm let jusy say some people.. i have never done the final report before and from what i know i have to discuss and do it with people with higher position at HQ department. feel quite afraid and stress...but, hopefully i can manage to handle it lah insyaAllah(reverse psikology nih)..amin..

oklah.that's it for now. enjoy the weekend =)

aman's favourite videos

since aku duk jaga2 aman kt rumah, kena la duk layan je kn dia nk ape. dia mmg suke sngt tgk 2 video kt bawah ni :

1) Excavator


2)Anak Tupai


aku mcm da dgr n tgk both video like a hundred times and am sick of it. sampai aku siap bleh hafal lagi dia punya lyrics. aku pon xphm la ape yg dia suke sngt psl the videos. sapa2 ada anak lelaki ka, nephew lelaki ke, leh la suggestkan video ni utk budak tersebut. grenti nnti korg pon skit otak mcm aku dgr lagu sama je..hahahhaa

career path

it has been a while kan x menulis blog. ntahla nape nowadays rs mcm xde mood nk menulis. maybe jugak sbb lama x menulis, so xde idea/ xreti nk tulis. hehe..

dlm entry nih, saje je nk update psl keje. family and a few friends of mine da tau yg aku dpt offer keje gomen bahagian *****. aku dpt tau yg aku dpt after aku on phone after PWC assessment kt KL. mula smpai msg ckp ade bnyak kli missed call from my mom,dad n my sis. pstu, ade 1 msg from my mom saying SPA offer letter da smpai kt rumah and my parents want me to go back to Tganu ASAP.

Aku if bleh nk la timba pengalaman kt private company dlu kn for 3-5 years be4 msuk gov. tpi malangnya SPA tiba2 antar surat. and lgi mengejutkan mcm kena lapor diri kt jabatan audit ngara 4/4 ni. so, nk x nak, aku kna la blik Tganu utk setelkan dokumen2 berkenaan eventough aku ade lgi PWC punya 2nd stage interview and IBM interview which aku terpaksa batalkan. aku siyesly mcm agak bengang la mula2 dpt tau.

but then, pikir2 blik mybe ni rezeki aku la kot dpt msuk gov. not everyone dpt kn the offer. lgipon, as a JPA scholar, aku nk xnak mmg xleh tolak pon the offer kang xpasal2 kena byr blik. & aku dpt jawatan ******* which salah satu position yg mmg aku nk pon. Allah knows best kan. so, rs bersyukur la jugak.

skrg,semua dokumen aku da siap. cam terlebih smngt la plak kan.haha..cuma skrg nk kena tunggu surat dpt posting kt mane je which aku rs mcm lmbat gile dpt. tpi since kwn aku pon xdpt lgik, so aku xde la risau sngt. oklah tu je nk update..hihi..

1st interview

just had my very first formal interview. alhamdulillah it went well i guess. luckily the interviewer was nice to me. it was just that i couldnt finish my verbal and numerical tests in time. hope those test results wont affect the outcome much..

=)

quick update!

OK..rasa da lama x update blog bila kwn2 bising napa xupdate coz diorg busan tgk entry psl honours..sapa kwn2 yg terasa sila angkat kaki sambil pusing seploh kali yek..hahaha..

update terkini ialah aku da grad dah on the 9th Dec ritu and now da kt Msia duk tanam buah anggur yg x tumbuh2 kt blakang rumah..mula2 blik jet lag la gak + badan xleh nk sesuaikan dgn masa msia.alhamdulillah skrg setelah blik selama seminggu lebih, body clock sudah boleh adapt..makan tok sah nk ckp lah. mostly, semua benda yg aku nk mkn, aku rs aku dah mkn..aku rs duk rumah badan aku bleh naek 4-5kg..ngeh ngeh ngeh..

owh skrg aku ngah busy jaga anak sedara si doremon aku syg. tapi kt rumah aku panggil dia AMAN..heehe..mula2 bila aku sampai rumah,aku nampak dia ngah main excavator sorg2. pstu, aku tros p kacau dia maen..tros dia nangis..dia x mo ngan aku..ciss..pstu da ptg2 sket,aku duk tepi tapi dia pandang ja ngan pandangan tajam..bajet aku tkot la tuh..haha..pdhl dia yg tkot ngan aku.sbb da 2-3 ari duk rumah, bila dia nk nangis ja sbb adik2 aku kacau, aku pandang je kt dia, tros senyap nangis sambil dia pon sibuk duk pandang je kt aku.pstu panggil mama or nenek sbb tkot la tuh.ahahaa..

tapi skrg dia dah ok la ngan aku..siap penah aku tidokan dia lgik...mak aku pon terkejut cana dia bleh tido ngan aku sbb dia mmg pyh nk tido if mak aku or kakak aku xtidokan..hehe..tapi yg annoyingnya is dia sngt2 la nakal. penat btol. pstu suka buat2 nangis..adeyhh..1 tips utk kwn2 yg nk ada anak, bila anak2 ko suka buat2 nangis, ko sila buat2 nangis lgi kuat.nnti senyap lah budak tuh..aku selalu buat and ianya menjadik...hahhahaa...gila jahat kn aku as mak sedara..kah3x..

OK lah dlu.nnti aku update lgik..heehee..

honours?

I receive an offer to do honours today. I am a bit shocked.I thought i dont have any chance to get it with my current result. I didnt saw this coming. Suddenly I feel scared. I dont know what to do. Should i continue doing honours? or should i start working.

hates making choices!!! arghh!!!

i'm graduating soonnnnn =D

i cant sleep last night..keep thinking bout my exam result..so, i slept after solat subuh, and i woke up around 10a.m after received a sms from fadh asking whether the result is already out or not.

then, i open my laptop and then open anu website. i entered my student ID and i closed my eyes. i kept telling myself it will be fine, i will pass and that sort of stuffs. after i calm down, i opened my eyes and saw my mark for CSR. i got 61 which is a credit. i am so happy because i thought i will fail. alhamdulillah.

then, i saw my mark for OB(76) and adv MA (73). I'm really shocked with my adv MA marks. remember when i said last time i didnt realized the correction for question 2? i guess the lecterur gave all of us a free marks for the question. coz i'm pretty sure without the correction, my answer for that question is all wrong. Thanks Habib. now i love u more..hehe..

so right now i'm pretty excited to attend graduation ceremony which will be held on 9th of December..all my hard work paid off now..yay alhamdulillah, all praises to Allah..=)

p/s: to egy & dina, gud luck for ur exam result dear.=)

sunday school

hari ini adalah hari terakhirku di sunday school..ini kerana minggu depan aku akan ada di Melbourne dan minggu seterusnya aku akan pergi ke Sydney. semenjak pagi hujan tidak berhenti-henti..terasa hujan memahami apa yang ada di dalam hati..

bila hari hujan, kebiasaannya bilangan murid-murid yang akan datang kelas amat sedikit.. setibanya di masjid, ternyata jangkaanku benar. hanya seorang muridku datang iaitu angelina. terasa amat sedih kerana saif, kavindra, amani, isha dan ilham tidak hadir padahal ini adalah kelas terakhirku.

sister niken kemudiannya menyuruh aku mengajar Angelina, Muhsina dan juga Amberlyn. walaupun berasa terkilan kerana murid-muridku yang lain tidak hadir, aku tetap gembira kerana dapat mengajar mereka betiga untuk kali terakhir. muhsina dan amberlyn pernah aku ajar untuk beberapa kali apabila cikgu mereka tidak datang. alhamdulillah mereka semua sedang membaca buku Iqra' 2. paling tidak ku sangka, mereka tidak mahu pergi makan pada waktu rehat dan tengahari semata-mata kerana ingin meyiapkan kerja menulis dan mewarna. Sibuk sungguh mereka menyuruh aku menjadi pengadil tentang hasil kerja siapa yang paling menarik.

teringat akan permintaan Muhsina untuk bermain "orang gantung" atau "hang man" suatu ketika dahulu, aku mengisi slot terakhir dengan bermain permainan tersebut. aku sudah menyiapkan permainan tersebut sejak sebulan yang lalu namun tidak sempat digunakan kerana kebiasaannya masa tidak mengizinkan. Akhirnya hari ini, mereka dapat juga bermain. seronok melihat mereka meneka huruf-huruf dan jawapan.

selepas loceng berbunyi, Amberlyn mendekatiku mengatakan dia tersangat-sangat dahaga kerana tidak makan dan minum semasa rehat dan tengahari. terus kupimpin tangannya dam turun ke dapur di bawah dan memberinya minum. tersentuh hati melihat dia minum. kemudian kami naik ke atas untuk solat zuhur berjemaah.

selesai solat, sister niken sempat berpesan supaya menyiapkan report untuk ibu bapa pelajar-pelajarku pada hari perjumpaan ibu bapa dan pengajar. terkilan kerana tidak dapat turut serta kerana aku akan pergi ke Sydney pada hari tersebut. namun, tidak mengapa.. aku redha. sempat ku salam sister-sister lain untuk mengucapkan selamat tinggal. semestinya akan kurindui murid-muridku, sister niken dan tenaga pelajar yang lain.

Moga bertemu lagi bersama kalian suatu hari nanti. semoga Allah merahmati kamu semua. Amin..

books

Believe it or not, i found surfing internet or watching tv no longer interesting after exam finished..haha..so, yesterday after i watched harry potter, i went to borders coz i want to find some books to read. lucky me there was a sale yesterday at borders. I managed to get myself three thriller/crime books that only cost me around $23 which I considered very2 cheap.



1) Patricia Cornwell : The Scarpenta Factor
2) Jeffrey Deaver : Roadside Crosses
3) Koji Suzuki : Spiral

Actually, I tried to find John Grisham books since I really love his writing but there is no sale for the books. but never mind coz I found those 3 books that I bought pretty interesting too. gonna spend my times reading those books so that my mind can stop thinking about my exams result that will be out next week. omg i'm so nervous and scared. Hope Allah let me pass all 3 courses. amin..

end of uni and exams (hopefully!)

finished my final paper today..yeahhh!!!
though it was not good at all coz i leave 3 questions blank, who cares!!!!
i'm just so happy i finally finished my exam..
and that's the end of my undergraduate studies..
hopefully, i can pass all 3 papers..Ameen..

well, need to rest my brain and body..babai..

After every rainfall, must come a rainbow ^^

Some people in our world today
Can dream and wonder why
Some people in our world today
Can only wait to die
Empty my conscience for your love
A bouncing finger lets me know I’m alive
& its still rains outside my window
Rains outside my window
Still rains outside my window

Some got it bad, some got it worse
Life can sometimes look like a curse
So I cry my heart out, Let it all go
Cuz after every rainfall must come a rainbow.

Some got it bad, some got it worse
Life can sometimes be so absurd
So I cry my heart out Let it all go
Cuz after every rainfall must come a rainbow.

Uh
Some people got it bad
Sum people got it worse
Since the day of the birth
Everyday end of earth
Live to die another day
Sure I say “congratulations”
But désolé
If the roof should come down today
Rest assure I’m there to wipe away the dirt with pure intention
Some corrupt
Brought a lil bag of hope
What’s up (?)

Some got it bad, some got it worse
Life can sometimes look like a curse
So I cry my heart out, Let it all go
Cuz after every rainfall
Must come a rainbow.

Some got it bad, some got it worse
Cuz after every rainfall must come a rainbow.
I cry my heart out, Let it all go
Cuz after every rainfall must come a rainbow.

I can’t run, I can’t hide
The struggle only makes us stronger tonight

If I don’t find u here
Said if I don’t find u here
I hope to find u way up there
Some got it bad, some got it worse
Life can sometimes look like a curse
So I cry my heart out, Let it all go
Cuz after every rainfall must come a rainbow.

Some got it bad, some got it worse
Cuz after every rainfall must come a rainbow.
I cry my heart out, Let it all go
Cuz after every rainfall must come a rainbow.

smoking is cool? erkkk

i went to city today to buy groceries (and to release my tension)..on my way back, there was a small group of people talking bout why people smoking. it is not my intention to listening to what they were saying, but they were walking in front of me. so, i just happened to heard their conversation.

Anyway, back to the story, one of them couldnt understand why people smoking and kept telling the adverse consequences of smoking. But, the other two said people smoke because they want to look cool. i was like REALLY???. how does smoking make someone look cool?.LOL..

personally, i dont think people who smoking are cool. A BIG NO!!! and i dont like people who are smoking. Is not that I dont like the person, i just dont like and couldnt stand the smoke and the smell. urgghhh. apparently, my dad do smoke. weird that i still could not use to the smoke & the smell eventhough i grew up with the smoke from my dad's tobacco since i was small.

tobacco is expensive and i think it will be a waste of money if people kept buying it. also, it is really bad for our health. i used to tell my dad to stop smoking when i was small coz i saw the warning from Malaysia government put on the tobacco box that "ROKOK MEMBAHAYAKAN KESIHATAN". but i dont think my dad ever listen to me coz until now he still smoking..

Smoking is addictive maybe. that's why it is very hard for some people to stop smoking. i really hope one day my dad can stop smoking cause i dont want my dad get any chronic disease associated with smoking.

owh well. need to get back to study..

anything can happen so be prepared and stay strong!

finish my second paper-AMA. i dont know why i was blank when answering the first question which have 20 marks. i did study that topic but my brain just cant work. i spend long time figuring how to do it but end up i didnt write anything in the paper except for equation and stupid wrong graph. by the time i realize, more than half an hour has passed and i know i should get going and answering other question.

and then 2nd question. i didnt really study the chapter but it is not that hard. so, i started and get stuck for some part. but, at least i answered it. question 3 is pretty ok..but it tooks too long to answer it, spend more than 45 minutes..As a result, i dont have enough time to write the essay in Part B. I remember i use dot point only for one of the questions.

Afterthat, I tried to do the previous no 1 question. but then, the examiner said time's up. So, i said to myself maybe it's ok if I lost 20 marks here coz i still got other parts. Then the examiner collect the paper.

But then, i felt really wanna cry after my friend, who sat behind me pointed up the correction for question 2 at the white board. WHATTTT?? I didnt notice it at all. question 2 has 23 marks and now my answer for it totally all were wrong..tsk..tsk..i donno what to say. My mid semester was bad. and now my final exam is totally crap.

On my way back to b&g, i just cry. i dunno what to do. i feel really bad. all sorts of questions come to my mind. what if I cannot graduate because of this paper? should i enroll in summer school? if i cannot grad, will i be able to smile when mak & ayah come to aussie later? they sure will feel really frustrated with me. and i definitely cannot do honours anymore.

i cried loudly in my room after i arrived. then, i saw Quran. i took wuduk and start praying zuhur. I know only Allah can help me. cant stop crying during solat. then, i read Quran and I feel much better.

I told mak about the exam and she said its ok, i already tried my best and mak remind me to doa to Allah frequently so that He can let me pass my exam. i feel really relieved now. thanks mak..

and right now, i promise myself i wont cry about this thing anymore. i'm sick of crying. Things happened so please accept it.and be prepared of whatever happened. I hope i can be strong enough if I cant graduate.

At the moment, I want to concentrate for my other killing paper - CSR. May Allah make it easy for me to pass this critical stage of my life. Amin.


p/s: saya tahu saya selalu mengeluh di blog ini pasal examlah, studylah, esaimenlah. lain kali saya akan menulis pasal benda-benda gembira pulak. =)