anything can happen so be prepared and stay strong!

finish my second paper-AMA. i dont know why i was blank when answering the first question which have 20 marks. i did study that topic but my brain just cant work. i spend long time figuring how to do it but end up i didnt write anything in the paper except for equation and stupid wrong graph. by the time i realize, more than half an hour has passed and i know i should get going and answering other question.

and then 2nd question. i didnt really study the chapter but it is not that hard. so, i started and get stuck for some part. but, at least i answered it. question 3 is pretty ok..but it tooks too long to answer it, spend more than 45 minutes..As a result, i dont have enough time to write the essay in Part B. I remember i use dot point only for one of the questions.

Afterthat, I tried to do the previous no 1 question. but then, the examiner said time's up. So, i said to myself maybe it's ok if I lost 20 marks here coz i still got other parts. Then the examiner collect the paper.

But then, i felt really wanna cry after my friend, who sat behind me pointed up the correction for question 2 at the white board. WHATTTT?? I didnt notice it at all. question 2 has 23 marks and now my answer for it totally all were wrong..tsk..tsk..i donno what to say. My mid semester was bad. and now my final exam is totally crap.

On my way back to b&g, i just cry. i dunno what to do. i feel really bad. all sorts of questions come to my mind. what if I cannot graduate because of this paper? should i enroll in summer school? if i cannot grad, will i be able to smile when mak & ayah come to aussie later? they sure will feel really frustrated with me. and i definitely cannot do honours anymore.

i cried loudly in my room after i arrived. then, i saw Quran. i took wuduk and start praying zuhur. I know only Allah can help me. cant stop crying during solat. then, i read Quran and I feel much better.

I told mak about the exam and she said its ok, i already tried my best and mak remind me to doa to Allah frequently so that He can let me pass my exam. i feel really relieved now. thanks mak..

and right now, i promise myself i wont cry about this thing anymore. i'm sick of crying. Things happened so please accept it.and be prepared of whatever happened. I hope i can be strong enough if I cant graduate.

At the moment, I want to concentrate for my other killing paper - CSR. May Allah make it easy for me to pass this critical stage of my life. Amin.


p/s: saya tahu saya selalu mengeluh di blog ini pasal examlah, studylah, esaimenlah. lain kali saya akan menulis pasal benda-benda gembira pulak. =)