i'm graduating soonnnnn =D

i cant sleep last night..keep thinking bout my exam result..so, i slept after solat subuh, and i woke up around 10a.m after received a sms from fadh asking whether the result is already out or not.

then, i open my laptop and then open anu website. i entered my student ID and i closed my eyes. i kept telling myself it will be fine, i will pass and that sort of stuffs. after i calm down, i opened my eyes and saw my mark for CSR. i got 61 which is a credit. i am so happy because i thought i will fail. alhamdulillah.

then, i saw my mark for OB(76) and adv MA (73). I'm really shocked with my adv MA marks. remember when i said last time i didnt realized the correction for question 2? i guess the lecterur gave all of us a free marks for the question. coz i'm pretty sure without the correction, my answer for that question is all wrong. Thanks Habib. now i love u more..hehe..

so right now i'm pretty excited to attend graduation ceremony which will be held on 9th of December..all my hard work paid off now..yay alhamdulillah, all praises to Allah..=)

p/s: to egy & dina, gud luck for ur exam result dear.=)

sunday school

hari ini adalah hari terakhirku di sunday school..ini kerana minggu depan aku akan ada di Melbourne dan minggu seterusnya aku akan pergi ke Sydney. semenjak pagi hujan tidak berhenti-henti..terasa hujan memahami apa yang ada di dalam hati..

bila hari hujan, kebiasaannya bilangan murid-murid yang akan datang kelas amat sedikit.. setibanya di masjid, ternyata jangkaanku benar. hanya seorang muridku datang iaitu angelina. terasa amat sedih kerana saif, kavindra, amani, isha dan ilham tidak hadir padahal ini adalah kelas terakhirku.

sister niken kemudiannya menyuruh aku mengajar Angelina, Muhsina dan juga Amberlyn. walaupun berasa terkilan kerana murid-muridku yang lain tidak hadir, aku tetap gembira kerana dapat mengajar mereka betiga untuk kali terakhir. muhsina dan amberlyn pernah aku ajar untuk beberapa kali apabila cikgu mereka tidak datang. alhamdulillah mereka semua sedang membaca buku Iqra' 2. paling tidak ku sangka, mereka tidak mahu pergi makan pada waktu rehat dan tengahari semata-mata kerana ingin meyiapkan kerja menulis dan mewarna. Sibuk sungguh mereka menyuruh aku menjadi pengadil tentang hasil kerja siapa yang paling menarik.

teringat akan permintaan Muhsina untuk bermain "orang gantung" atau "hang man" suatu ketika dahulu, aku mengisi slot terakhir dengan bermain permainan tersebut. aku sudah menyiapkan permainan tersebut sejak sebulan yang lalu namun tidak sempat digunakan kerana kebiasaannya masa tidak mengizinkan. Akhirnya hari ini, mereka dapat juga bermain. seronok melihat mereka meneka huruf-huruf dan jawapan.

selepas loceng berbunyi, Amberlyn mendekatiku mengatakan dia tersangat-sangat dahaga kerana tidak makan dan minum semasa rehat dan tengahari. terus kupimpin tangannya dam turun ke dapur di bawah dan memberinya minum. tersentuh hati melihat dia minum. kemudian kami naik ke atas untuk solat zuhur berjemaah.

selesai solat, sister niken sempat berpesan supaya menyiapkan report untuk ibu bapa pelajar-pelajarku pada hari perjumpaan ibu bapa dan pengajar. terkilan kerana tidak dapat turut serta kerana aku akan pergi ke Sydney pada hari tersebut. namun, tidak mengapa.. aku redha. sempat ku salam sister-sister lain untuk mengucapkan selamat tinggal. semestinya akan kurindui murid-muridku, sister niken dan tenaga pelajar yang lain.

Moga bertemu lagi bersama kalian suatu hari nanti. semoga Allah merahmati kamu semua. Amin..

books

Believe it or not, i found surfing internet or watching tv no longer interesting after exam finished..haha..so, yesterday after i watched harry potter, i went to borders coz i want to find some books to read. lucky me there was a sale yesterday at borders. I managed to get myself three thriller/crime books that only cost me around $23 which I considered very2 cheap.



1) Patricia Cornwell : The Scarpenta Factor
2) Jeffrey Deaver : Roadside Crosses
3) Koji Suzuki : Spiral

Actually, I tried to find John Grisham books since I really love his writing but there is no sale for the books. but never mind coz I found those 3 books that I bought pretty interesting too. gonna spend my times reading those books so that my mind can stop thinking about my exams result that will be out next week. omg i'm so nervous and scared. Hope Allah let me pass all 3 courses. amin..

end of uni and exams (hopefully!)

finished my final paper today..yeahhh!!!
though it was not good at all coz i leave 3 questions blank, who cares!!!!
i'm just so happy i finally finished my exam..
and that's the end of my undergraduate studies..
hopefully, i can pass all 3 papers..Ameen..

well, need to rest my brain and body..babai..

After every rainfall, must come a rainbow ^^

Some people in our world today
Can dream and wonder why
Some people in our world today
Can only wait to die
Empty my conscience for your love
A bouncing finger lets me know I’m alive
& its still rains outside my window
Rains outside my window
Still rains outside my window

Some got it bad, some got it worse
Life can sometimes look like a curse
So I cry my heart out, Let it all go
Cuz after every rainfall must come a rainbow.

Some got it bad, some got it worse
Life can sometimes be so absurd
So I cry my heart out Let it all go
Cuz after every rainfall must come a rainbow.

Uh
Some people got it bad
Sum people got it worse
Since the day of the birth
Everyday end of earth
Live to die another day
Sure I say “congratulations”
But désolé
If the roof should come down today
Rest assure I’m there to wipe away the dirt with pure intention
Some corrupt
Brought a lil bag of hope
What’s up (?)

Some got it bad, some got it worse
Life can sometimes look like a curse
So I cry my heart out, Let it all go
Cuz after every rainfall
Must come a rainbow.

Some got it bad, some got it worse
Cuz after every rainfall must come a rainbow.
I cry my heart out, Let it all go
Cuz after every rainfall must come a rainbow.

I can’t run, I can’t hide
The struggle only makes us stronger tonight

If I don’t find u here
Said if I don’t find u here
I hope to find u way up there
Some got it bad, some got it worse
Life can sometimes look like a curse
So I cry my heart out, Let it all go
Cuz after every rainfall must come a rainbow.

Some got it bad, some got it worse
Cuz after every rainfall must come a rainbow.
I cry my heart out, Let it all go
Cuz after every rainfall must come a rainbow.

smoking is cool? erkkk

i went to city today to buy groceries (and to release my tension)..on my way back, there was a small group of people talking bout why people smoking. it is not my intention to listening to what they were saying, but they were walking in front of me. so, i just happened to heard their conversation.

Anyway, back to the story, one of them couldnt understand why people smoking and kept telling the adverse consequences of smoking. But, the other two said people smoke because they want to look cool. i was like REALLY???. how does smoking make someone look cool?.LOL..

personally, i dont think people who smoking are cool. A BIG NO!!! and i dont like people who are smoking. Is not that I dont like the person, i just dont like and couldnt stand the smoke and the smell. urgghhh. apparently, my dad do smoke. weird that i still could not use to the smoke & the smell eventhough i grew up with the smoke from my dad's tobacco since i was small.

tobacco is expensive and i think it will be a waste of money if people kept buying it. also, it is really bad for our health. i used to tell my dad to stop smoking when i was small coz i saw the warning from Malaysia government put on the tobacco box that "ROKOK MEMBAHAYAKAN KESIHATAN". but i dont think my dad ever listen to me coz until now he still smoking..

Smoking is addictive maybe. that's why it is very hard for some people to stop smoking. i really hope one day my dad can stop smoking cause i dont want my dad get any chronic disease associated with smoking.

owh well. need to get back to study..

anything can happen so be prepared and stay strong!

finish my second paper-AMA. i dont know why i was blank when answering the first question which have 20 marks. i did study that topic but my brain just cant work. i spend long time figuring how to do it but end up i didnt write anything in the paper except for equation and stupid wrong graph. by the time i realize, more than half an hour has passed and i know i should get going and answering other question.

and then 2nd question. i didnt really study the chapter but it is not that hard. so, i started and get stuck for some part. but, at least i answered it. question 3 is pretty ok..but it tooks too long to answer it, spend more than 45 minutes..As a result, i dont have enough time to write the essay in Part B. I remember i use dot point only for one of the questions.

Afterthat, I tried to do the previous no 1 question. but then, the examiner said time's up. So, i said to myself maybe it's ok if I lost 20 marks here coz i still got other parts. Then the examiner collect the paper.

But then, i felt really wanna cry after my friend, who sat behind me pointed up the correction for question 2 at the white board. WHATTTT?? I didnt notice it at all. question 2 has 23 marks and now my answer for it totally all were wrong..tsk..tsk..i donno what to say. My mid semester was bad. and now my final exam is totally crap.

On my way back to b&g, i just cry. i dunno what to do. i feel really bad. all sorts of questions come to my mind. what if I cannot graduate because of this paper? should i enroll in summer school? if i cannot grad, will i be able to smile when mak & ayah come to aussie later? they sure will feel really frustrated with me. and i definitely cannot do honours anymore.

i cried loudly in my room after i arrived. then, i saw Quran. i took wuduk and start praying zuhur. I know only Allah can help me. cant stop crying during solat. then, i read Quran and I feel much better.

I told mak about the exam and she said its ok, i already tried my best and mak remind me to doa to Allah frequently so that He can let me pass my exam. i feel really relieved now. thanks mak..

and right now, i promise myself i wont cry about this thing anymore. i'm sick of crying. Things happened so please accept it.and be prepared of whatever happened. I hope i can be strong enough if I cant graduate.

At the moment, I want to concentrate for my other killing paper - CSR. May Allah make it easy for me to pass this critical stage of my life. Amin.


p/s: saya tahu saya selalu mengeluh di blog ini pasal examlah, studylah, esaimenlah. lain kali saya akan menulis pasal benda-benda gembira pulak. =)

some people are just stupid

Damn it..my food got stolen again..usually, i can tolerate but hello people, now is exam period. i got so many things to revise..and there is no time for me to cook or go to city to buy food today coz i got exam tomorrow for god sake..urgghhh...i am hungry and i feel really2 wanna cry..stupid inconsiderate people..i will never ever forgive u..

p/s: pms mode.ignore me.