almost a year now~~

bulan ni dah bulan mac..bulan depan dah april. so, da nak masuk setahun aku keje..cepat betol masa berlalu..rasa baru semalam aku keje..huhu..

bos sngtla ade high expectation kt aku..dan tahun ni dia expect aku buat something yang aku rasa sangatla berat..dia mcm tetibe bagitau aku dalam meeting depan semuaorang without giving me any earlier notice. and she said it's going to determined my KPI this year. of course i was so shocked because it's something i have never done it before..since my work is packed with the work assignment already, i dont know when i can find the time to do this extra task..

i'm lack of knowledge and experience..you might be thinking that i already have the necessary skills and knowledge since i have worked for almost a year already. but the truth is i don't know a lot of stuff and sometimes i feel really dumb and stupid. i am super slow in learning new stuff..

and the new task is actually a group assignment..i as the team leader have to lead my staff to do it..the truth is i am very bad in leading my staff to do something..now almost a year but don't know why i felt that it is quite hard to lead people who are older than me..my staff have their own working attitude and i found it is really hard to control them. i bet they felt complacent working in government sector.i always wonder why i have been assigned to this team at the first place..

my boss actually knows bout their attitude..and i almost cried that day when my boss told me she know what i'm going through and how she believe i can manage them and handle the assignment that she asked me to do in the meeting..thing is me myself don't think i can do it at first and i'm really afraid i will let my boss down..but, i'll take this assignment as my challenge..insyaAllah,i'll try my best to do it..i believe Allah wont burden me with something i cant handle..

as for now, i want to focus on finishing my current work assignments first before starting the new assigned task..let's hope everything runs smoothly in the future....amin..